Clean up

It didn't take me more than a day to understand that my problems are like math. They all have a solution. Only I need to relax and get to the root of it from all kinds of branches. These problems are harmless obstacles that can be overcome.
I mean, what about people who have been diagnosed with cancer but don’t have the resources to end it? What about people who cannot be blessed with children? Or worse, people who are under painful suffering, in shreds and pieces, still fighting for life in Palestine… what about several millions of people like that? Many of them didn't deserve to be where they are… But have then given up? They're still fighting for life. They're fighting, not for a healthy, wealthy or happy life. They're fighting for just life. Life, which in all, is everything.
Why can we not learn from their struggles? When did we start talking more about humanity and becoming less of humane... Breathe any air... drink any water... sleep anywhere- nothing's dirty.. it's our hearts that've become dirty. Find your clutter and work on it.

Today's Intention: Making peace for myself: it's my choice.

When you enter a place filled with tension, or are in need
of some calm loving energy in a hurry, imagine the color
pink, the color of unconditional love. Take a few deep
breaths and imagine your heart filling up with the color
pink. When a feeling of tranquility permeates your chest,
imagine that the color flows out from your heart and fills
the entire room. Feel a sense of peace saturate you and
those around you.

There's a thousand reasons

We all question, but in different ways, for example, people question your play with words, :), people question their God or whoever it is they believe in all the time, people question a million and one things....

My only concern... the questioning is negative, only when you are depressed, confused, unhappy - and so you achieve nothing out of it.

Amusingly, everyone needs something to believe in for their survival yet if they question, if they reason, it shakes their faith ... so we get used to sitting in our comfort zones and saying things happen for a reason... There is no reason if you can't identify it. :)

There is no blind faith without miracles and miracles are God's way of saying question it ... your life, your success, your dreams, your aspirations ... everything is for a reason.

Passion

In the time I took of from my blog, I successfully rooted on little desires that would dawn on my way home in the car or big desires, like- standing up for the right things and following through. Now logic says it starts with little steps. That's what I thought too, until I tried this:

No, not taking pictures silly.

1.) Spend some time along learning to be your own best buddy. Imagine the kind of friend(s) you are looking for and -- if you can be this kind of playful -- spend just a little time every day having tea with your imaginary playmates. This will help you to recognize the shape of your own new and powerful personal geometry and solidify it so you're not stuck acting out old pattern in a new situation.

2.) Along with your new (imaginary) friends, explore in safe and quiet ways. What alone things do you find you enjoy? Books, Movies, Art, Favorite TV shows, clothes, drama...independent of other people, what are your passions that you have misplaced or forgotten. In these you may find "everyday archetypes" in characters or actors or heros that already carry the new parts of yourself that you haven't found yet.

3.) When you know your passions and they are enough present in your life they will help you get going -- whatever it is, let it draw you on. If it's animals, you might volunteer and meet other people with the same passion. If it's Jane Austin, then rather than just any book club, looking for buddies, look for Jane Austin fellows. Remember that there are internet groups on ANYTHING.

4.) The funny thing is that when you find your real new "shape" = and can wear it, rain or shine, you'll just discover that you're in the midst of a whole new dynamic group . . . some people find to their astonishment that the new friends are their old friends who were just waiting for someone to lead them to newness.

The desire to embrace

I am all of this

How about you?
I am the itch and the scratch
the ache and the achievement
the choking rage and the "I see your point"

the desire to make a difference and
the desire to put my head under the covers
the love in his eyes and the longing in mine

When did we ever learn that we have to put down what's in one hand to
embrace what's in the other?

Now is the time to hold it all,
hold the fullness and
drop the struggle.

We are all of this. And more.

Only Human

So I question my awareness again. How do we love?... we imperfect, selfish humans. We're so bad with acceptance and forgiveness. We're horrible with asking for acceptance and forgiveness, honestly.
It's not that we don't have time to love. We don't want to love anybody else except ourselves. That, in itself is self destruction.
And it all comes down to 'truth is nothing but what we believe to be'.

Try: (v) to attempt to do or accomplish:

I may be ready to forgive myself for being forgetful. I may be ready to find the sweet spot where ease and self-mercy meet being awake and aware. I'm ready to be less comfortable pushing and trying to make things happen and more comfortable slowing down, checking in with my heart and noticing what feels natural and even (gasp) easy. I'm ready to become more comfortable staying awake to what wants to come into being.
Imagine yourself as the space in which trying or doing or efforting is arising. Imagine yourself as the sky, the breeze, the air, the room, the universe in which trying is like a welcome guest--there is plenty of room for trying in this vast spaciousness. Trying can be welcomed and accepted, not pushed away or judged.